Have you ever gone rock-climbing before? It may not have been the "real deal" type but it could have been an indoor practice area. That's what I did for the first time ever a couple weeks ago. I couldn't help but replay the whole event in my head, over and over, a couple days ago. The rocks are never on your side, and the ones that you can get a grip of, are far and few between (no pun intended). I never realized how much you could sweat and use your whole body to push you to the top. While I was climbing though, I never thought of...the top. I never thought about what I needed to do to get back to level ground. In my mind, putting on the safety harness was all I cared for.
"I'll be fine" I told myself.
But just as I got to the top, and I could touch the roof (Mind you this is not the Grand Canyons or any extraordinary like that) I started to panic.
"How am I going to get down? How did I manage to make it all the way up here?"
Now the point is not that I did not know how I was going to get down, the point is at that moment I realized in order for me to get down, I needed to...
As cliche as it may sound, its the truth. For me to have the full rock climbing experience, I needed to let go of the rocks that helped me stay as high as I was and trust that the rope and harness will do their job and slowly let me down to the ground. Well, I let go, and the rush of energy that came to my body as it gave up its strength to the force of gravity was incredible. I could remember feeling relieved when my feet touched the ground. I let go, and the harness and rope did their parts.
I feel like we do this with God all the time. We are scared to let go. Of our comfort, of our situations, of our trials. We go too far on our own, and then we panic that we have no way back, or out of it. If only we trust in God as much as I trusted in the rope and harness. If only our faith in Christ alone was absolute, unadulterated, and pure. Jesus said in Matthew 17:20:
“For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Do I have that kind of faith? Do I have the faith to move mountains and let go of my worries to Christ? Do I have the purest form of faith which allows me to cast all my burdens upon Christ who cares for me, and let go, or surrender it all for Him?
Over the past six months, I have been going through the hardest trial of my life, the loss of someone I loved. I can tell you right now, its not easy to just let go of people. Its not easy to let go of situations that you do not feel like your in control of. But I know the One who I can go to for everything. His name is Jesus Christ and He came to be the bearer of everyone's trials. Anything your going through, He's been there. Anything you've done, He's forgiven you already. Any regrets you have, He is there to help you move forward. This past six months have not been easy.
But they have been beautiful.
It has been a time of crying, regretting, hurt, pain, sorrow, loss, but it has been the most beautiful time of learning, training, correcting, from my Saviour. He's moulding me to be like Him, He's crushing me to raise me up higher. You see its not easy to let go, when the farther you go up, the more you look down with the space between you and the ground. But Christ is here to catch you, when you let go, because you surrender your life to Him, you surrender your pain, your worries, your uncertain future. HE is there to assure you that when you let go and move forward, HE is the one who made it all happen so that you could get closer to Him.
This past week, I finally chose to surrender my trial to Christ and let Him carry it for me.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. - Matthew 11:29-30